Interesting Site to visit...

http://jll-ms.blogspot.com/

The END

Just wanna close this blog saying I'll miss everyone in HDB...

You guys rockz...

I'd leave the board as I'm a misfit... nothing big a deal...

:>

Closure with my R/S

To all my brothers out there...

Had always promised to you guys I'll buck up in my relationship life... sorry I had never... even till now, I realised I never learnt my lesson... I am trying hard and will kept trying...

My relationships have always been a failure... and with my up-coming career challenges, I really need to put a closure to things... And this is how...

I'd decided to walk... and walk alone... let me explain...

Going into a relationship is like taking a bus ride... You have a destination to be at with a time frame in mind
You hop on a bus and wish that the bus will bring you there... committing with the steep bus fares...

half-way thru, you realised that the bus isn't going to reach on time or not comfortable or even not heading to the right destination...
SoOo you stop and wait for another bus, that might never come? or you stay on the ride and prays it will reach eventually...

I'm talking a stroll... and giving up on the buses... I know this is harder and more demanding without a set of wheels... but I really lost faith in SMRT and SBS and Transit... I rather crawl and take forever... Reason? Cuz I know I'll be control... and I know eventually... I WILL GET THERE... hopefully before 35...

"Love is not "because of"... BUT "despite of"...

My working life-to-be

I'll be ending this blog very soon...

I'd offically tendered and will be leaving the govt soon... for better or worst... thru sickness and health...

I'll miss all my frens and buddies... but the system is killing me softly...

Every morning, I look into the mirror and couldn't recognise myself... Who am I?Every night, I walk into the shower thinking... what have I achieved today... I can't say I'd not achieved anything, but the things I'd learnt isn't what I value in life. In fact, the only thing I'd learn and felt rewarded, from the very smart pple in the govt, is the ability to do things under all the rules & regulations... knowing which line to stretch and which are the land mines... BUT this is also the exact thing that changed me to a diff person...

My mom used to remind me to be careful... when I hit rock bottom then I'll know...
My reply to her was... Even if I reached a rock bottom I'll break the rock...
In my life there is no impossible and restrictions... cuz my life is just 35 yrs long... i dun wanna waste it... I want.. to...

JUST DO IT~!

Happy Birthday to myself...

Well what a birthday... as always... it wasn't that great... hate birthdays...

I went to work... received a cake from Mic... shared it with my workmates... had ya kun with Mic... and went for the Yishun for meeting... till 10.30pm... had dinner and and went home...

Haven't open my presents yet... never receive much but thank you all... the most "xin tong" gift is from my guy from gym... he rem... wow... and knowing that I go gym only on weekends, he gave me last saturday... thanks bro...

:>

And thank you all for the sms-es... understand that everyone is now on different paths and busy with diversed goals... the thoughts and efforts are very much appreciated...

Happy Birthday to me~!~!~!

:>

Taking it slow...

haha... suddenly kept having this song in my head... asking me to "take it slow... wooow take it slow..."

Anyway just a quick update... I'm so packed with work and useless meetings... even night meetings... its taking away my valuable time to do my own work...

Oh yah... I really need to thank all these super sweet brothers and sisters who remembered xiao di my "1st Cried"... well, just to keep everyone informed, I'll be having my birthday this year at work... and after that I'll be heading down to some Branch office for meeting... so basically, I'm wasted... I don't know many ppl in office actually remembers my birthday... or simply my birthday is nothing to them... Maybe I'll fall sick that day ? ha ha

Back to my story of "take it slow"... I think it is true... Having a few jobs wanting to hire me but they are soooo slow and reluctant to talk abt pay... I guess it is their tactics... anyway my counter tactic is to take it slow... play by ear loh...

Even relationship also... I'd realised, just like work, I'd been giving all my best at things... but nothing turns out great... and I'll be taken for granted... so I'm taking things slow... if it doesn't turn out good then... what to do? but I really felt wei qu doing all the work and putting all the efforts...

okie I wanna go shit le...

Born Loser...

hahaha
It's certain... I'm going to be a loser yet again...

~My theory~
A guy has only two things in mind... on one hand is girls and the other is $$$...

They are both of equal weightage... I guess most guys will agree on this... careers, cars and ego all ties right back with $$$ and girls...

I'd personally developed this stupid theory further... guys with money get all the breaks... meaning that they get all the good luck for career and girls etc...
When you have $$$ you go to better school, get better network, find better jobs... then your $$$ grows and eventually you'll have the time to find yourself a better girl, if you dun have one to start with...

simply implies that a guy without money gets NOTHING...

I think I'm losing my focus here... HmMm let me crystallise my tots.... ..... .... okie...

My point is that I'm going to be a loser cuz I'll be unemployed, being unemployed I'll get poorer... and that's the end of me, yet the beginning of me as a loser...

As a consolation, I still have K'...
Although my baby and I will not last long... the time together is wonderful and memoriable...

Should upload some pictures of us soon .... .... :>

The Almighty...

I Love K'...

Heehee I got my babe a new set of eyes... glow-in-e-dark super white lights... kekeke...

she look G-L-A-M-O-R-UOS... hahaha chio chio...

Alot has past... everything seems to be on the way for my work... too many things to handle at such a short time... I'm just going to do whatever I can ... to clear my stuffs... and find time to sort out my tots...

SighzZz till a firm decision has been made... there's nothing I can write here...

Updates!~@

hMm Updates...

:>

Can't rem when was the last time I blog... nothing much that I could blog about... just the D day is this Friday... had been very worried and "scare-ed" of all the uncertainties that will present itself, after D-day.

Had forgo my short holiday trip... reason? simple... let me do release my financial status as @ 10 Jul 07;

Dr
POSB - $50
UOB - $40
Cash on hand - $20 (After deducting the $25 for my Ah-Nee's car washing service)

Cr
DBS Captialand Card - $32
UOB Pl Card - $100

Effective disposable $$$ - -$(42)

*Haha ... with this level of vitamin M... how to go relax.... so streesed now... :>

Anyway I'm thinking to prep of my D-day this week de... but sooooo busy with work... piles and piles of work... worst of all I dun realli know what I wan... so lost...

sighzZz...

Overslept Again...

Hee... for the past few days I had been late cuz overslept...
Dunno why... but I just couldn't get enough rest... Think I'm not really phy stressed out but mental...

alot on my mind... nothing I can do but worry... and
"worry does not solve anything, like chewing gums when solving algebra..."

Headache... anyway I think I really gotta go... Mag asked me to join her and SL's timing... but I dun think I can... I might be able to take to lousy shit...

Saw ZS last night... he asked me if I wan his job offer... over 3k (min)... I dunno... but looking at him last night with (I guess) his new gf... I realise how life should be...

*confused*

Sighz... honestly I can take any shit... but after sooooo long... I promised myself not to take too much shit... cuz can take shit and should take is different... Guess I'm still learning...

Where should I go... ... I really wanna go for a break...

LuNcH TiMe

...met K for lunch :> heehee so sweeeee to drop by and pass me lip bum for my stupid frost bite lips... too much air-con... chit-chat abt useless stuffs heehee...

... the guys and butches at coffee bean are really nice... :> made my day... i really enjoy a good service... really make paying money worthwhile... if everyone is like that... but i guess everyone gotta be on part-time; just for fun or interest...

Oh yah, I'm wearing my Dom shirt and pants and shoes hahaha :> really nice and smart looking (at least to me)...
more imptly it is well pressed (ironed) heeheee

hMm and I bought myself a book yesterday... "Eats, shoots and leaves" hahaha never really had the chance to enjoy this book... so bought it for myself...
It's really been very long since I'd enjoy a good book... any recommendation anyone???

Okie back to work ke... NO OT TODAY~! I insist...

SleEpY~!

SoOoOoOo sleepy...slept well but rather late... so still very sleepy...

went dwn town during work yesterday w mag to do last min research... Walked up & dwn and high & low... waste time... could had gotten the books earlier...

Then we witnessed a car accident... the motorist is smart to release the handle bar early and row over the car and landed on his feet... good moves... but guess the joints must be all hurting...
The worst part is that the driver alighted from the car and checked his car... WTF... your lousy Korea car more impt??? jerk... hate ppl like that... CCB...

then went back office to clear my work... as per norm... I OT till 9 plus... sob... but meanwhile went off for my Chinese chess competition hahaha took part for my dept's team...

Was like super lost at the competition, my eyes were blurred from the hours of PC-ing... and it's really been so long that I'd played (10 yrs?)... went of the 1st round badly... my fault... shld prep by warming up my engine...
I was very careful the second round, having to face a very good team and player...

To a point of the match, my other two team mate had lost... but it wasn't abt the team anymore... I'm not going to lose to some govt sector guys... come on... I wanna prove that I can beat anyone here in anything...

the uncles and all my opt were saying how I am going to lose... I'm like... why I can't see it... hMm I'm super upset... so I counter (whatever they intended) with my own moves and of cuz... I won... and won very nicely... all the uncles were impressed... wanna me to stay and "friendly" match... still I went back office to do my work :<

hMm my O2 Brother...

Haha, I brought my O2 to work today, with the programs... tok to D about my problem... he trial & error bit and it was working... and he installed all the little gadegts for me... hahaha
So happy...
:>

made my day...

* I'm so easy to pleased

SiGh...

DiD a Simple Cash Flow...

I have only enough saving to last 2 months... :<

It's Thursday le...

One more day to friday...

One more month till D-day and two more months till the war is over...

Two more weeks to think thru' and two weeks to prepare...

Oh yah tmr going doc again... wanna it to end but if it ends now... gotta... sighzzz :<

sooooo tired .....

Weekend ...

Ha last min met up KM on Sunday... after his facial... OMG I can't believe him... what has gotten into him... but nvm lah... maybe it's high time I hop on the vanity train...


Went to that CD shop... yes its "THAT CD SHOP" in town... very pretty sales girls... but...

I was taking a candid shot of KM... it was really cool and manly, but the girl walked towards us and requested us not to take pics... KM was upset and angry... I was like okie... sorry...

on the way to Wisma, he explained that the sales girl was actually under the impression that we were taking her... that's why her atti.... FCUK loh... come on loh... I was like super angry and wanna go back and clear things up... (I guess part of me wanna explain since she's pretty hahaha)...

KM said forget it lah... it's always like that... pretty girls are "hao lian" and single guys are supposed to be desperate... he added that I'm just a few months single... get use to it... KM was single for years...
True true ... I agreed with him...

Just like the song better man...
"Cuz I'd been tot... to take the blame..."

We are "Yi Ge Hao Ren" x 2 heehee

Finally Spoken...

Went Drinking with T.C. last night... Chat and Chat... really fun...

Why the sudden interest? you may ask...

Well, my head finally spoken... hahaha told my fren about what she said... mon amie jus said the key was this statement;

"... you can change unit, or (Blank)..."

So what's the blank? it was left blank cuz? hahaha you guys are smart ppl...

So wat had I done wrong??? She said I'm been making up stories behind her back about her... come on... the only person I talk seriously talk to is Mag... and I dun talk about her per se... I lament abt work... nothing personal...
sighzZz... I dunno wat went to her hears... And like wat I'd told my other unit head... I dun like to explain and I dun find the need to explain... you come and ask and I'll tell... not like I'm hiding anything...

Why I hate explaining??? cuz they are all evil... females talk... and my dept "females" alot... haha
sighzZz... even my break up with Mic was seen as a "show" or lie I made up to flirt with the girls in the office... come on lah... get real... the females aren't really female ... more like shemale hahahaha (joking)... jokes aside... I was suffering so badly but they saw it as a window to talk... bitches...

"My fren's advise"

J came back from US, told her abt the incident... she told me a bit more on how she was treated and quit... she told me to let go... it's really better after quiting... but she understood my financial burden...

K said even more so I shouldn't quit and just make her life heeheehee

TC commented that nothing is more really then $, till u secure a job then quit... and meanwhile should do something to...

KM asked me not to be so myopic, concentrate on the bigger things...

WL sms me to not stress out, can ask her out to distress...

S highlighted that just a few more weeks till "contract" term, so if can try to stay slightly longer...

My say.... I can't say... cuz I had gotta kept to myself rem? ha Life...

Sleepy... Hollow... Friday...

Very tired morning... Woke up realli late...
went jogging last night... but then had supper hahaha contra off...

Although it is friday... but rather "moodless" nothing much planned for the weekend... just taking things easy... dunno wat to do after work today... should be going home and jog again...

hMmMm...

Updates for the week...

The week was quite okie... expect my face still very jialat...
finally made up decision to take care from today onwards hahahaha...must start learning to be vain...

Anyway went of for drinks a couple of nights early in the week... met this funny uncle, S... can't believe he could repeat the same story every time I met him... like William's father in the Pirates of the C. III... anyway jus wanna chill of...

Needless to say I had not be jogging in the evening... too tired... did little exercise... feel so guilty haha nvm lah... start today ? hahaha everything today...

Just yesterday, I'd brought my darling for service... she in great condition now... Zoom-Zoom... wrong, wrong... zoom-zoom is for Mazda... mine shld be "Engineered for Fun"...

Well, feeling rather sleepy now... haven't been sleeping well... this time it wasn't due to the career & loans etc... (of I gave up on tt) but e air-con in my room is leaking again for the past two days... sigh... it's raining in-door man... and my bed got all wet... sianZzZzZz...

Making full use of the weekends... (Army Daze?)

HmMmMm... went playing the last weekend...

Sat - Went exercising, then renewal my bloody road tax (ha it's still the same lady, as nice and helpful...)
then met up with KM and AT in the evening...

I initally wanted to get more ppl, but as always it is not an easy job... so ended up with KM, Ad and Ric but Ric had family dinner and gotta go off early, and I was late ... so I didn't get to chat with him... Ric take care of the numbers hahaha

Went shopping with KM, idiot guy so shop-a-holic (hahaha bought a expensive watch)... after Ad came we had dinner @ wis (ex ex ex!!!) and saw so many pretty girls... looking for seats to share some more... so tempted, but Ad told me S was coming... shit her lah... hahaha

Then went KTV in Town, S still sings very Pro and KM is getting really good at it... and I'm just playing a fool... Then KM and I went for supper and chat abt tons of stuffs... one line that I took home from him was...

" relax lah... we gotta treasure our weekends... like army time... "

We stayed late and really nice to catch up...


Sun - was recovering day for me... trying to sleep in to get my complexion working for me again... hahaha (yesh... I'm still having hyper tension days)... then got a sms to support my fren @ her pub... went dwn chat with them... all crap... nothing serious... haha I was pretty shy abt singing so openly... it's so stress and it's as if I'm not stressED enough~!

Anyway I realise how different was the conversations between like KM / Ad and those party animals... hahaha no good or bad... I think there is the need for both... just stuck a balance...

You guys rock...

Colorgenics

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Did this test yesterday... find it very "zun" haha checked with my friends too, they didn't get repeated stuffs, which means it's not standard answer for all... the below is my reason...
*I'll do it again after I tender hahaha


*MAYBE YOU COULD LEAVE A COMMENT IF THE WRITE IS TRUE?

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

The way things are you are under considerable stress and you feel that there is little hope of matters righting themselves. Everyone about you seems to aggravate the problem even more. You feel that at this time you need to be alone and you are right - move back and give yourself a chance to breathe.

Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.

You are feeling helpless. The fact that you are unable to control events that are going on around you is subjecting you to considerable stress. This can, if not relieved, cause muscle spasms or hypertension. It would seem that you are, for whatever the reason, being subjected to intolerable pressures. The complete environment would appear to be hostile. It would also seem that you are being driven against your will. You feel - and perhaps quite rightly so - that unreasonable demands are made of you but more to the point you feel as if you are powerless to control the situation or protect yourself in any way. At this time you feel utterly helpless.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

What Happened on Tuesday @ work...

Was really busy, and shag... I took a toilet break and went to wash my face... on my way back I bumped into my Mentor... (ha yesh we have mentors in gov sector)... he was like...what happened to your face etc~!!!... got beat up? hahaha

I went back into the toilet and stared into the mirror... ha... yah I'm scarred on my left side of my face and neck down... then it came to me that my draftsman commented, earlier that day, that I'm having lots of love bites.(Very funny)...

I think I'm just super tired... it could be due to some dirty pillow, but I'd only changed it recently... I dunno lah... all I know is that I'm scarred~! hahaha...

Sighzzz I usually get this during exams or hyper tension periods... I dunno why am I getting this now... I'm really overdue for a break... from everything... not just about work... but my family and social life... (very long story, dun wanna lament about these)

:">

Well, it's high time I look after myself le... sighzZz

What a busy weekend...

Did quite abit this weekend...
...
Start off with Sat?
Well, my O2 phone was spoilt so I had to travel down to Bugis Service Centre... Took the MRT instead of driving... it was a nice experience... haha long time not sit...
Sat accross this sweet looking girl... hahaha one good point abt Public Transport, if it is not crowded, you get to people watch...

The O2 service cenre guys were nice and friendily, but the que was horrible... and there was this guy kept coughing at me... Freak... but I wasn't going to give up my seat... hahaha anyway while waiting I played my final game of Sol. haha

Then I took a wlak round Parco... saw some really cute stuffs and staffs... very polite as well... all kids (stuffs)... It was fun...

Now Sunday...
Didn't do much I guess, I couldn't rem much... but managed to contact K. Chat and all...

Oh... I rem... I was being commented FAIR by 3 person within 24 hrs. Idiot... The overly induging office is killing my image hahaha :> gotta do something about that.

Tiring Friday...

It's friday... tot that could post an entry on Thank God It's Friday (TGIF)

Too bad... was super busy right from the start of the day... Tian Ci sms me to meet up... I'm not sure if I could make it... even if time permits... I'm not sure if I have the strength... so ke lian...
:<

Anyway I got my car back... hopefully she's totally done up... really gotta get ppl to sit in it to test it out... :>

k... k... better go back to work or else I'll be here till mid night... :<

Ho... HO ... Ho_liday!!!

Hey... it was a holiday... no need to work...
:>

anyway the night be the holiday I made a decision to go out and enjoy myself since I could sleep late the next morning... but like always, I o.T. and O.t... got home really late... and I slept like a baby...
Sad to say I woke very early at 7 am~!!! What a waste...

anyway went out late afternoon... walk walk etc and saw some DVD players... didn't buy anything... too ex...
and went hospital visit qin with wes ... stayed just awhile... then went off chit-chating with wes... long time no talk cock liao haha

Oh yah... Jackie is getting married... Oh my god... hahaha wasn't even aware that he's attached hahaha ">

hMm all in all it was a okie day... :>

My Weekends...

Well, it was quite a nice weekend...

Achieved much...

Saturday... went jogging... (haven't been jogging for 2 weeks str8)
Realised that I was 4 kg off... hahahha :> getting to my aim for re-gaining my old weight...
Still its more fats ... sob...

then went to the darts competition... well my team never fail me... and won champion~! haha so excited for them... I'm really those passionate guys... get so involved...
*thanks guys, you made my day...

Then managed to packed my room really clean... swept and change my bedding organised my clothings... etc hahaha shiok...

and my room smell great~!!! :>

Well, really tired... feel like going for holidays...

Could you lent me a listening EAR?

Went to this sound thingy today...

Mistaken the location of the talk... and had to rush all the way down to Woodlands ave 8... anyway it was worth the efforts...
Really miss school... sitting there with my brain switch off, just staring into space... and on, when an interesting topic pops up... hahaha
It is just me... every time I'll jus switch off when the teaching gets too simple or slow... my train (of tots) will just choo-choo off without the speaker...

anyway went with Mag to the talk... saw her hand with all the scars etc... then realised that she had a car crush some time back... reminded me of my crush... good or bad memories??? I dunno... I just know that it is good to have experience but keep it once in a lifetime thingy, just like army...

Go V-Power...

Hee,

Last evening, I had to pump my petrol on my way back from work... At the my beloved Shell station this super cute girl (okie pretty, mainly cute) walked up to me and spoke with her really soft voice... *grin*

Anyway it wasn't much... just some promotion by shell to push for V power... Wat the heck, I love V power anyway... so I'd pumped V power and she took down my number and gave me a free gift... just some useless key chain... *haha*

The point is that she made my day... I'm such a easy to please guy... hahaha dun ask me why... but after a long and harsh day, just a simple smile (of cuz must be pretty one lah) will cheer my day... especially in the morning to kick start the day or in the evening to end my lousy day...

:>

*Just a simple guy leading a simple life in a complex world... (I think I wrote this for my friendster as well~ LOL)

What A Lousy Week...

Had been really struggling with my work since last week... Not really due to the over loading of work... but more of the ppl stuffs... they are all devils...
*Dun force me to be one... I'll be Satan...

Anyway had to settle my own admin stuffs too... didn't achieved much but I mgt to get Jap Drama to cheer myself... other than that, nothing good came out...

Very tired of being the one making all the efforts all the time...
since like ever, ppl have been taking me for granted... I'm always there when others need me... but when I need someone, like now, no one is around... I'll have to look after my own needs... I'm not really asking much but someone to really cares and concern about my situation... no need to solve it for me just be there... I think that is also too much to ask... It's not easy being nice...

I'm really tired...

"load our boat with only what you need"

To Be or Not to Be...

Hahaha...

Feeling artie fartie again...

The topic of this morning is;

"To be or not to be"...

Have been at a lost of self identity...

So who am i and what am I supposed to be...

Given the famous qoute, we all know the infamous answer;

"That is the question, but who has the answer..."

anyway... I got a partial anwer to this...

I cannot decide what I wanna to be... but I know what "not to be"...

So my answer for the day is...

Not to be public slave...

Things gone south...

Here's is a few things that made my blood pressure hit roof top...
Please understand the following are just stuffs being doc. the main part are NOT in black and white... maybe next time I'll type it out...

I wanna take this opporpuntity to let go my steam... hahaha :>

Choo....Chooo...CHhooo....


When all I wanna say is...
WTF... My point is that I had been working till late nights since the 2nd day of work in this freaking dept... I'd willingly stayed with you to help you complete your stuffs when your whole unit had left you~!!!
What kind of appreciation is that?~!

Next... I had my fren waiting dwn the office block since 7 till 11pm~!! Freak you, what is wrong to keep my fren inform of my working status!~@!! JUS WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?~!

If you think they are better freaking hell stop giving me all the work~! I'm like rushing so many things... and you guys are always LATE for meeting... I set up the meeting place le got time of cuz go and settle something Else lah... SIAO~!!!

The 1st day I came in, you said that your unit doesn't need an additional man power... nothing to do...ETC then dun ask me to do lah~! FREAK...


There are a few more e-mails (arrows) flying around b4 and after that... my fren was in the CC list and she asked what the hell was going on...

A simple clarification she wanna kick an attitude with me~!!!! HEY it's ME okie... ppl in government service wanna play punk with guy from the streets??? HAR?!~!! IT IS UR FREAKING ARROW NOT MINE~! Who is to know you had been working here for 10 years yet know NUTs about the SOPs?

Freaking busy now...

Maybe just do two ... very xin ku to crop and crop the names and all :P

Darts

hMm just had a game of darts with my work mates...

really interesting to learn the art of playing darts...

guess wat... I'd managed to end the game... winning it for my team of cuz hahaha

I guess this is a blessing in disguise... I'm being forced to be the sport rep. and given the committment from my dept. I'd to be involved in all the competition to make up the numbers... but it got me involved in different games and people who are really OnZzZz... they are the fun ppl here...

will miss them when i'm gone...

Sick Very Sick

I'm like totally sick...

had been on MC for the past few daysbut wasn't in the condition to do anything my lie in bed aimlessly...

I realised that my age is catching up really fast after working with the government. I tot it was suppose to be the other way around?

sighz... I guess it's just no my cup of tea...

really wanna get well soon and get on with my life...

Bright and sunny morning

Good morning everyone...

Had been really slack lately, never jog again... haha growing fat again I guess... Maybe I'm just too contented by losing 2 kg le... haha

Having said that, I getting used to the lifestyle of being alone... no one to care nor fan me... making use of my spare time (watever I had left from work) to myself... either jogging or thinking about future... Still very lost about what career path to seek... so lost... vex...

I'm just happy the my life has more or less settled as boring... I like it this way, no ups means no downs... I need the clam and peaceful lifestyle while take my time to make life turning decision...

The only thing missing will be my old friends... haven't been contacting back due to my work... sighzzz this shouldn't be the case... People should have a balance work life... ... Will work harder in this aspect of things...

Superb Morning

Started the Morning early and nice... (Means no jogging last night yet again... 2 in a row... OMG)...

When off to work early to meet up my old fren ZS for breakfast...

The weather was great... clear was clear and it has been awhile since I could see the blue in the sky while driving to work...

Had a decent chat with ZS... he is doing pretty well in his company... so good to know... Chat about lots of things... and mainly real estate related...
Had been awhile... rather uneasy... to chat about real estate stuffs... I guess I had lost track of my real estate stuffs... well, the topic still interest me lot...

Had been thinking about a job change for awhile now... and I guess my passion is still in Real Estate... Not following laws... Just which specialisation of RE...

Anyway, read an article recently on the death of this lady (May)... so sad... I guess I'm pushing myself too hard as well... this could have easily happened to me...

* Moi = Confused + (Easily) Contented + Timid + R

What a sleepy week...~

Hi all,

Haven't been really sleeping well, tons of train of tots jamming my small little pea brain... "chu chu"~!

hMm haven't been waking up early and had to rush to work for the past few days, to make things worst, there were like jams everything morning...
Eventually, I had to cross the ERP at $2 or $2.50 instead of the normal $0.50~!!! Shit loh..

So making that extra effort, I'd force myself to wake up on time this morning (Means no jogging last night)... but sad to say, my cash card was spoilt...
Called my brother and gotten myself a spare cash card to the day (gotta buy a new one later during lunch time)... Hee dun agree with the way he does things but still he's a good brother... Just too pampered I guess...

Sigh... feeling so down now... someone help me... Make some decisions for me... sighx...

HeLLo~!

OMG ... I'm so sorry that i haven't been blogging again...

I think I'm not Mr brown or XiaXue hahaha i cant make the commitment to do it daily... its not like there's nothing happening just no time.... How come they are that free????

Here are some updates thus far:

Car - Fully Completed my repairs for my Kelisa

Post Grad
- Went for the Master interview in NUS... I miss NUS sooo much... I can't believe it... hMm anyway didn't prepare well for the interview (something happened the night b4) and think my chances are slim.
- Went down to Jap Em. recently to enquire about the programme that I wanna take. Guess I'm not that capable enough so decided to drop the idea... for now...

Finance
- Finally my CPF loan bill has come... very upset that my MOM is not willing to pay the sum for me after all the promises she and my family gave... I had expected that... anyway I'd decide to pay it slow given that I'm having a tight cash flow for now...
- Very tight with cash flow now given that I had been over spending... but on things that had to be spend... the tot of selling my car dawn upon me once or twice... but guess if you remove my kelisa in my life equation then I'm left with;

Ah_tIoNg's Life = 0

Ha ha nothing good...

Work
- My friend J has quit for the dept... OMG, w/o telling me...
- An admin staff had past away due to a fatal car crush... so sad... she was the nicest staff around... never lament nor shy away from other people's work... i don't think life is fair... I still have her e-mails in my Lotus Notes... ... So sad... Did all I could...

Entertainment
- Found a girl (old one) who watches Seinfeld with her hubby! Finally i can borrow... finally I have some joy in my life yet again... "The show about nothing"

Social Life
- Caught up with a few old old frens thru my old old msn this weekend... so shiok that they are rem me... missed out in so many outings for the past year...
- Realised that CT was injured very badly... I think he should had recovered and heading Bintam or Batam for holidays... (he call there his home) hahaha Cuz he loves the sea, he's a diver...
- going to make that extra effort to meet my frens before i die...

Health
- Well, getting better i guess... has started my jogging sessions, almost 3 to 4 days a week... from 15 to 30 mins... no big deal but really getting my stamina back slowly...
- Went gym on sat... wasn't that fun but one day later when all the muscle "crying in pain" shoik~!
- Went Jogging at East Coast... saw this cable ski thingy and decided to pick up wake boarding... Ha... I'm for real k? W/o r/s in my life I'm pretty much the boss of my life... (Finally)

Love Stories
- Nothing new... for the month of Apr there were two girls who expressed their feelings for me... I told them I'm not ready, I need to be single... One of them is really pushing her luck way too much... I'm totally turn off...
- Now, I really treasure my old female friends... too bad I had lost contacts with all my friends...
- My ex is still trying to make things hard for my life... trying ways and means to mislead me and "xin ruian but no way... I'd hurt bad enough... I'm even considering not to even be friends with her...

Sex
Three Letter; D.I.Y :P

Mental Block

Die lah...

After the car crushing fun I had, I realised that I'm becoming dumb and dumber~!~!

Guess my brain is not working... slow in processing and super forgetful... even driving also (so scary)...

Dunno what exactly gotten into me... anyway just shout out:

"Life Sucks, even when you are dumb"

(Makes no sense? Ha.. proves my point - I'm dumb-ing)

What a week...

Sorry if the post is difficult to understand... rather tired mentally...

Well, tons of stuffs had happened since the last posting...

Didn't made the effort to blog since nothing good had happened lately and I really don't wanna let readers have that impression that my life sux...
(self denial - haha)

Updates
Got back my car... lots of little problems... warranty got void... bought a lousy phone... haha short and sweet...

Anyway, having tons of unhappiness trying to "follow laws"... (means at my work place)... still life goes on...
I'm going for sure, just the matter of time... ...

Got an e-mail to go interview in Apr... going for it...
...

*still trying hard to break free from relationships... need to learn to love myself...

What a day...

It was a rather early evening... around 7.30pm... I'd managed to convince myself to go home early and get my much deserved sleep... My new job had been getting the best of me... the most of me... maybe it should be all of me...

As i was travelling on PIE towards "Home", after Adam... the traffic slowed down to a halted... Needless to say Mr Law by Law, followed and when to a complete stop... checking my rear view mirror... I saw a Comfort Cabbie heading straight into my virtually "dun haf s"... kissed it and the impact threw me forward and hit the rear of the Toyota in front...

Mr Toyota is a fine chap... fine, decent man from India... an IT manager... but what a way to meet someone... Mr Comfort, well... old... tired... and dejected... I felt sorry for him...

After doing all the required paper works, I was Please to be informed that I was at fault too... for tail-gating the car in front. Come on~! Seriously how far should I be? I was taught far enough to see the back wheels during halt. And I was now told; far enough not to hit the guy in front. I was at least 10% at fault in causing a chain collision~! AND "this is Singapore Law" I quote...

What to do? Mr Law by Law went home injured and upset... I took a shower and stoned for awhile... then switched on my TV set and rang up Mac for my dinner... it was after mid night... I watched my Amazing Race hoping my Dearest R&A would win again... AND they get kicked off~!!! OMG...

What a day... the next day would be just a sequel...

The next chapter...

I'll like to share a bit about myself and the creation of this blog...

Personally, I had been doing simple ad hoc web design for years and explored myself in the uncharted waters of blogging a year before it was given its name...

I'd took pain to create a personal blog at every stage of my life... marking a new beginning or an end... However, I soon realise that these mile stones had been removed in this virtual reality realm... Then things took a slower pace... Stop creating / generating templates and started using ready-made portal... Friendster was the last, where all should had ended...

Well, so what's the purpose of this blog???
Just like its title; I'm just following law... following the norms... expressing feelings and emotions that might stir unwanted commotions...
Didn't realise I need to resort to this method but working by the law, with the law and for the law... words are better kept unspoken...

Disclaimer : Anything published here could and should not be used against me nor my beloved government~!