Closure with my R/S

To all my brothers out there...

Had always promised to you guys I'll buck up in my relationship life... sorry I had never... even till now, I realised I never learnt my lesson... I am trying hard and will kept trying...

My relationships have always been a failure... and with my up-coming career challenges, I really need to put a closure to things... And this is how...

I'd decided to walk... and walk alone... let me explain...

Going into a relationship is like taking a bus ride... You have a destination to be at with a time frame in mind
You hop on a bus and wish that the bus will bring you there... committing with the steep bus fares...

half-way thru, you realised that the bus isn't going to reach on time or not comfortable or even not heading to the right destination...
SoOo you stop and wait for another bus, that might never come? or you stay on the ride and prays it will reach eventually...

I'm talking a stroll... and giving up on the buses... I know this is harder and more demanding without a set of wheels... but I really lost faith in SMRT and SBS and Transit... I rather crawl and take forever... Reason? Cuz I know I'll be control... and I know eventually... I WILL GET THERE... hopefully before 35...

"Love is not "because of"... BUT "despite of"...

My working life-to-be

I'll be ending this blog very soon...

I'd offically tendered and will be leaving the govt soon... for better or worst... thru sickness and health...

I'll miss all my frens and buddies... but the system is killing me softly...

Every morning, I look into the mirror and couldn't recognise myself... Who am I?Every night, I walk into the shower thinking... what have I achieved today... I can't say I'd not achieved anything, but the things I'd learnt isn't what I value in life. In fact, the only thing I'd learn and felt rewarded, from the very smart pple in the govt, is the ability to do things under all the rules & regulations... knowing which line to stretch and which are the land mines... BUT this is also the exact thing that changed me to a diff person...

My mom used to remind me to be careful... when I hit rock bottom then I'll know...
My reply to her was... Even if I reached a rock bottom I'll break the rock...
In my life there is no impossible and restrictions... cuz my life is just 35 yrs long... i dun wanna waste it... I want.. to...

JUST DO IT~!